It’s All Grace: Surviving My Husband’s Suicide to Sparkling Like a Sapphire in the Sun
- Kimberly Nilsson, Psy. D
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It’s All Grace: Surviving My Husband’s Suicide to Sparkling Like a Sapphire in the Sun
About the Book
It’s All Grace: Surviving My Husband’s Suicide to Sparkling Like a Sapphire in the Sun is a book about how Kimberly was able to surrender to all that she was powerless to control—her past, her husband’s death, and the real-life demons that made her life a living hell—and ultimately how she survived and thrived after suicide. More importantly, how she arrived to a place of not only healing, but of flourishing, and has discovered a remarkable new life. The book also honors her late husband’s life, for he was a remarkable soul and will be remembered for the contribution he made to those he loved, to those he mentored, and for his beautiful example of living life with passion and courage.
“Even in our darker hour, there is hope and yes, grace. Even the worst, most unmanageable things are grace.”
A Letter to the Reader
Welcome! My intention in writing It’s All Grace: Surviving My Husband’s Suicide to Sparkling Like a Sapphire in the Sun is to offer hope to the growing number of individuals and families who have lost a loved one to suicide—and that no matter how far down the depths of despair you’ve gone, you will see how your experience can benefit others. It is for those who have survived their own suicide attempt(s), who have thought about suicide in the past, or who are considering suicide now. It is also for those struggling with addiction. You may be suffering. You may be in pain. Perhaps you are looking for ways to feel more connected. I want my book and this website to serve as a way to understand the context of your own suffering, pain, or loneliness, as well as a way out of it—which, of course, as we all know—is through it. There is no short cut through the grief process or addressing addiction. It requires that we show up every day. It requires our radical self-love, self-compassion, forgiveness of ourselves and others, mindfulness, patience with ourselves and others, faith, gratitude, and ultimately Grace, which is a gift to all of us and is always with us.
Together we can save lives.
I deeply loved my husband who took his own life while under the influence of cocaine. But I survived. I stayed sober. I healed. I continue to heal to this day and have found peace and equanimity in this process. And, I want more than anything to help others who are feeling as alone and adrift as I once did to find that same peace and equanimity too. Addiction destroys lives but can be arrested. Suicide is a permanent reaction to life’s difficulties or challenges and that no matter what is happening in life today—ups or downs—it will pass. And with the encouragement and support of friends, family, professionals, spiritual advisors, support groups, and yes, even me, you can survive too. You can heal and flourish. You can free yourself from this suffering. You may even surprise yourself and be able to laugh and love again. Some day you may even wake up excited and grateful about your life again, like I have.
With Gratitude,
Kimberly